December 9, 2016

​Today I saw...

The world. I went for a ride on my new scooter. Been trying to find the right words to explain what it felt like. I rode around the new neighborhood nearby. No cars, wide roads. One I got the hang of things, it was quiet and peaceful. I said hello to people in their yards and giggled when I put my turn signal on. I feel so silly but I even teared up a bit. 45 years old and have never driven a car. And yes, I understand that my lil' 7mph vroomer doesn't even compare in the real world, in MY word, a world where my body is becoming frustratingly less reliable, this amazing miracle that sits in my parking spot means ... freedom. Lame explanation, but if you need more, I'll just have to zoom on over to your house and we'll chat. ;)

So I haven't posted in a loooong time. This isn't ok. So I'm starting my attitude of gratitude thingy again, with a twist. Often when I'm trying to think of my nightly gratefuls, my day passes before my eyes and I feel an overwhelming flood of emotions. I always try to pick the thing that made me the happiest that day. And yeah it changes my life for the good every freakin' time.

Telling my story isn't all ups, duh. My friends can attest to that. But my story, ups and downs, is made up of me noticing things; being aware of my surroundings and -- watching. And I see lotsa cool stuff. Let's try this and see what happens, shall we?

Today I saw ... my kid working harder than I've ever seen him work at Taekwondo. My heart melts every Wednesday and Friday night as I watch him excel. He said to me the other day, "Dang it mom! I can't half-butt it anymore in P.E. class anymore because Master Cole has taught me to give it everything I have!" Proud, proud, proud!

I saw my other kid old open his first checking account. Wowza. For a moment I wanted to contradict myself every other time I talk to him and say, "It's time to stop growing up!"

I also saw a freckle-face kid and his mom walk out of the DMV grinning from ear to ear as he stared at his temporary learner's permit. You GO, dude!

I saw a friend - and when I say my friend I mean my happy pill prescriber - say that I looked better than I have in a long time. I realized that I've felt better than I have in a long time. Pretty dang weird because of the life happening around me right now. Through her eyes I saw myself as a good mom, an awesome speaker, a um...writer, a spiritual being, and yes, a fierce fighter for everything I believe in. Go figure. RAWR.

...be patient with me, I'm just starting. More sightings tomorrow.

#greatfulfor